Author Archives: Beth L. Gainer

Competing in Cancerland

Posted on: April 20th, 2017 by

“A house divided against itself cannot stand.” — Abraham Lincoln We who’ve been hit with the cancer bomb are now part of a community we never wanted to be part of in the first place. We should be unified. But we are not always unified. We should find comfort from each other. But often we [Read the full story …]

Radiation Fallout

Posted on: April 6th, 2017 by

The train eases into the early morning fog. Other commuters are lulled to sleep on their way to work. I slothily lean my head against the window and look out, exhausted. But I cannot sleep. Outside, blurred lights blink past me. All I think is, “What the hell just happened?” The train’s route is clear, [Read the full story …]

Afraid, Acted Anyway

Posted on: March 31st, 2017 by

True to my word, after I pressed the Publish button on my post on March 3, I picked up the phone and made an appointment for my brain MRI. Prior to that date, I had been stalling. At several points I had frantically told myself and friends and my psychotherapist and anyone who would … [Read the full story …]

‘I Bet You’re Proud You Beat Cancer’

Posted on: March 3rd, 2017 by

These are the words I recently heard from a medical assistant at a neurologist’s office. After providing my extensive paperwork that listed all the medications I was taking, as well as my medical history, this girl was irritating the hell out of me. She kept asking for information that I clearly stated on the medical [Read the full story …]

Heart Is Where the Home Is

Posted on: February 17th, 2017 by

I’ve been off the grid lately, but not because of writing gridlock. It’s because of exciting news: on February 4, my daughter and I moved into a larger house, one with more than one bathroom (finally, yay!). So instead of writing for the past couple of months, I’ve been packing with the help of my [Read the full story …]


Posted on: December 1st, 2016 by

I’ve been away from the blogosphere for awhile now. What kept me away was a perfect storm of being super busy, the horrific U.S. election and its even more horrific results — and the failing health and recent death of my beloved cat Cosette. It’s fitting I write about Cosette today, as it’s the 10th [Read the full story …]

Bully For Me

Posted on: November 3rd, 2016 by

Last week was my daughter’s school’s annual anti-bullying rally. Children, their parents/relatives, and school employees all wore blue to show our solidarity with each other against bullying. Our children each carried a blue sign that said, “I take a stand against bullying.” Like many schools, Ari’s elementary school has a “no tolerance for bullying” policy. [Read the full story …]

Embracing Autumn

Posted on: October 21st, 2016 by

As trees shed their leaves in my part of the US, I have shed my resentment toward a month set aside for pink merchandising and ribbons. In other words, October is no longer “Pinktober” to me. Truth is, October is not to blame for being dubbed Breast Cancer Awareness Month. October is innocent, and that [Read the full story …]

Much Ado About Something

Posted on: October 13th, 2016 by

Ari and me (left), my brother and sister-in-law and nephew What a summer and fall it’s been thus far! It’s been a busiest-busy time for me with the launch of my new book, Calling the Shots in Your Medical Care. The book was released July … Continue reading the story “Much Ado About Something”

Cancer and the Imagination

Posted on: September 30th, 2016 by

When I was a teenager, I wished my active imagination would always stay vivid. Unfortunately, that wish came true. *** Being diagnosed and treated for cancer unleashes a maelstrom of emotions. But lately I have been wondering if a cancer experience heightens our imagination. We imagine our deaths. We imagine our physical pain and suffering [Read the full story …]