I love my gym’s pool, but I detest the locker room. Too many people see me naked there. I’ve always been modest and shy about my body. Still, since breast cancer socked it to me good – stealing my physical and emotional health… and my body parts – I’ve been excessively paranoid about being naked in front of others. The conversation between my paranoid self and … Continue reading the story "Locker Room Talk"
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“But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen…” -- T.S. Eliot, “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” I’ve been at it again. Doing what I do so well. Postponing visits to my doctors. I have no excuse – except that I’m scared shitless. Adding insult to injury, because of my procrastination, my medical appointments will now pile up like a multicar wreck. I’m … Continue reading the story "No More Magic Lanterns, Please"
Arielle and her classmates are heading for kindergarten. But for now, they are participating in their pre-K graduation ceremony. Amid applause, they head toward their seats that face the audience of their biggest fans – their loved ones. As I watch the ceremony, my eyes fill with sad-happy awe. My eyes brim with sadness, as I know these very special children – whom Ari has known since … Continue reading the story "Graduation Day"
Before undergoing chemotherapy, I was understandably terrified. The nurse gave me some written materials on chemotherapy in advance of the first treatment. But these readings only provided facts; they didn’t prepare me emotionally for what was to come, nor did they address my fears or calm me down. This is the case for many, … Continue reading the story "Book Review: Getting Past the Fear"
Dazed and downcast, I sit on a box the movers set down at my new apartment. One of them tells me, “Why are you so sad? Your life’s just beginning! I’m divorced, and my life is the happiest ever. Yours will be, too.” I wonder if he is on crack. Happiest ever? I will never be happy again. I’m also upset that the movers know too much … Continue reading the story "Moving Out, Moving On"
When I was adopting Ari in China, our last stop before heading back to the United States was Guangzhou. This was where the adoption paperwork was done and where Ari received her visa. Guangzhou is a remarkable city, with many people practicing tai chi in public parks. One thing I noticed were many brides and grooms taking photo shoots there. I didn't know if these were models … Continue reading the story "Menagerie Mondays: The Brides of Guangzhou"
Many grappling with a serious medical condition have done it. I know I have. From the convenience of my home, I’ve let my fingers do the walking – through the Internet. And my payoff: Being bombarded with a gazillion facts and opinions, some rather depressing. Oh, and a few information-overload panic attacks. Overwhelming? Absolutely. Enter Medivizor, a brand new online service designed to provide easy-to-understand customized information for … Continue reading the story "Medivizor: A New, Easy Tool at Your Fingertips"
As a breast cancer patient, I tried a few support groups. However, I couldn’t relate to others’ situations and didn’t quite fit in. What bothered me was people’s unwillingness or inability to talk about their innermost struggles and fears. At Gilda’s Club, a monthly support group was worth checking out. It was moderated by a social worker who was also a breast cancer survivor. I sat … Continue reading the story "The Support Group That Went Haywire"
I recently witnessed a support group in action – and it was comprised of four-year-olds. It was the end of a weary day, and I was picking up my daughter from pre-school. As usual, I was in a hurry to get her home. After all, we had a schedule to follow: dinner, some mandatory fun, and bedtime rituals. I was also preoccupied – dwelling on work I … Continue reading the story "The Youngest Support Group"