Post Archives from the ‘Cancer’ Category



Competing in Cancerland

Posted on: April 20th, 2017 by
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Layout 1 “A house divided against itself cannot stand.” -- Abraham Lincoln We who’ve been hit with the cancer bomb are now part of a community we never wanted to be part of in the first place. We should be unified. But we are not always unified. We should find comfort from each other. But often we do not. Take Continue reading the story "Competing in Cancerland"

Radiation Fallout

Posted on: April 6th, 2017 by
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Layout 1 The train eases into the early morning fog. Other commuters are lulled to sleep on their way to work. I slothily lean my head against the window and look out, exhausted. But I cannot sleep. Outside, blurred lights blink past me. All I think is, “What the hell just happened?” The train’s route is clear, Continue reading the story "Radiation Fallout"

Afraid, Acted Anyway

Posted on: March 31st, 2017 by
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Layout 1 True to my word, after I pressed the Publish button on my post on March 3, I picked up the phone and made an appointment for my brain MRI. Prior to that date, I had been stalling. At several points I had frantically told myself and friends and my psychotherapist and anyone who would Continue reading the story "Afraid, Acted Anyway"

‘I Bet You’re Proud You Beat Cancer’

Posted on: March 3rd, 2017 by
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Layout 1 These are the words I recently heard from a medical assistant at a neurologist’s office. After providing my extensive paperwork that listed all the medications I was taking, as well as my medical history, this girl was irritating the hell out of me. She kept asking for information that I clearly stated on the medical Continue reading the story "‘I Bet You’re Proud You Beat Cancer’"

Heart Is Where the Home Is

Posted on: February 17th, 2017 by
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Layout 1 I’ve been off the grid lately, but not because of writing gridlock. It’s because of exciting news: on February 4, my daughter and I moved into a larger house, one with more than one bathroom (finally, yay!). So instead of writing for the past couple of months, I’ve been packing with the help of my Continue reading the story "Heart Is Where the Home Is"

Cosette

Posted on: December 1st, 2016 by
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cosette1 I’ve been away from the blogosphere for awhile now. What kept me away was a perfect storm of being super busy, the horrific U.S. election and its even more horrific results -- and the failing health and recent death of my beloved cat Cosette. It’s fitting I write about Cosette today, as it’s the 10th anniversary of Continue reading the story "Cosette"

Cancer and the Imagination

Posted on: September 30th, 2016 by
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Layout 1 When I was a teenager, I wished my active imagination would always stay vivid. Unfortunately, that wish came true. *** Being diagnosed and treated for cancer unleashes a maelstrom of emotions. But lately I have been wondering if a cancer experience heightens our imagination. We imagine our deaths. We imagine our physical pain and suffering even before we Continue reading the story "Cancer and the Imagination"

‘Everything Happens for a Reason’

Posted on: August 2nd, 2016 by
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Layout 1 I have many pet peeves in Cancerland. During my diagnosis and treatment, people told me to stay positive. Well, this advice harmed me, as I needed to cry and feel miserable. Those who told me to stay positive negated my fears and denied my feelings. Other individuals spouted that God couldn’t give me more than Continue reading the story "‘Everything Happens for a Reason’"

Cancer Harbors: A Safe Harbor for Cancer Survivors

Posted on: June 30th, 2016 by
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IMG_1440 I rested my head against the window, as the train car’s soothing motion lulled other morning commuters to sleep. I was uneasy: It was my first day back to work after cancer treatment had ended, and I was officially a survivor. While I was lucky to have survived thus far, I hadn’t had a clue about Continue reading the story "Cancer Harbors: A Safe Harbor for Cancer Survivors"

Re-Acquainting Myself With the Breast Self Exam

Posted on: June 16th, 2016 by
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Once upon a pre-breast cancer time, a physician paid me a high compliment. “You do better breast exams than most doctors,” he said. And I think he was right. Every month I performed the same ritual: a thorough breast self-exam, including the look-at-your-breasts-in-the-mirror test. Although I always dreaded the idea of something possibly being wrong, I examined my breasts thoroughly and regularly. Until a breast self exam Continue reading the story "Re-Acquainting Myself With the Breast Self Exam"