Embracing Humanness

Posted on: October 1st, 2014 by
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Wishing everyone a sweet year ahead is a beautiful concept — whether it’s New Year’s in January or during Rosh Hashanah, which just recently passed.

Last year, my goal on Rosh Hashanah was to cast away what I thought was the biggest sin of all — mistreating myself. My goal last year was to purge myself of the fears that came with doctor appointments and medical concerns.

But in creating these goals, I made a misstep. I went to doctor appointments expecting to have conquered all my fears. I was resolved not to show doctors my human side. In the end, at a recent oncology appointment, I couldn’t attain an unreachable goal: showing my game face. And even worse than that, I beat myself up after the appointment for being human in front of my doctor.

I mistreated myself for not being a better person. And then I berated myself for mistreating myself.

My goal over next year is simple, but not easy: to accept and, dare I say it, embrace my humanness. So this year, I’m on a different path, stepping back so I can step forward.

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8 Responses to Embracing Humanness

  1. Kathi had this to say about that:

    Embracing our humanness, our vulnerability, and just being able to forgive ourselves is one of the healthiest things we can do, I think, especially after cancer.

    I wish you and your darling daughter every blessing in the new year, Beth. xoxo

    • Beth L. Gainer had this to say about that:

      Thank you so much, Kathi! You are right about all of these things being healthy.

      Sending you hugs,

      Beth

  2. Nancy's Point had this to say about that:

    Hi Beth,
    I wonder sometimes why it is so hard to accept and embrace ourselves. And then after cancer it can be even harder. I am working on that very thing every single day. I think your goal is a very good one, but you’re right it’s not an easy thing to do. I like the way you put it, stepping back so you can step forward. xoxo

    • Beth L. Gainer had this to say about that:

      Thanks, Nancy. We all have these goals to work on, and it can be quite difficult to see it all through. And you’re right: it is so hard to embrace ourselves. I’m planning to do that this year. I’ve been too self-critical for too long.

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  4. Eileen@womaninthehat had this to say about that:

    We all want to be Wonder Woman. Damn bodies and human emotions and their inherit limitations! But I suppose that’s an important part of the mix. I’m sure your goals resonate with all of us. My Rosh Hashanah goal? Really simple this year. After dealing with cancer and so much crap the last several years, constantly fighting to keep my head above water as almost 5 years of my life flew by in a vacuum, I resolved to have more pleasure this next year. Because the last 5 years have not been so fun. :) Happy new year, Beth.

    • Beth L. Gainer had this to say about that:

      Hi Eileen,

      You put it perfectly! Yes, darn it, why can’t we all be Wonder Woman?! I’m sorry that cancer exists and that you’ve suffered so much in the last five years.

      Happy New Year to you, as well.

  5. Beth L. Gainer had this to say about that:

    Thank you Journeying Beyond Breast Cancer for including this week’s post in your round-up.

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