Post Archives tagged ‘fear and cancer’



Afraid, Acted Anyway

Posted on: March 31st, 2017 by
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Layout 1 True to my word, after I pressed the Publish button on my post on March 3, I picked up the phone and made an appointment for my brain MRI. Prior to that date, I had been stalling. At several points I had frantically told myself and friends and my psychotherapist and anyone who would Continue reading the story "Afraid, Acted Anyway"

Running On Empty

Posted on: December 11th, 2015 by
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Pressure. I’m under the pressure of living up to others’ expectations of what a cancer survivor should be. Over the years, well-meaning people’s comments have stirred these feelings -- from saying I was courageous to have faced cancer to telling me there was a divine reason I survived. Got Courage? I don’t. I want to run away from that hero-on-a-pedestal sculpture people have made of me and now Continue reading the story "Running On Empty"

No More Magic Lanterns, Please

Posted on: June 28th, 2013 by
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“But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen…” -- T.S. Eliot, “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” I’ve been at it again. Doing what I do so well. Postponing visits to my doctors. I have no excuse – except that I’m scared shitless. Adding insult to injury, because of my procrastination, my medical appointments will now pile up like a multicar wreck. I’m Continue reading the story "No More Magic Lanterns, Please"